Friday, March 30, 2007

Hello Ocean, My Name is Drowning Victim...

I'd like to take a minute and thank you for killing me...seriously...did I have to die? Was there no way I could have avoided you? Anything you could have done to prevent yourself from filling my lungs and thus ending my life? Was there anything wrong with me continuing to live? What really was the issue? Was I that bad of a person? Did I really make your life that hard? In the grand scheme of things, would it have made that big of a difference had you chosen to cut me some fucking slack?
Well anyway, I'm dead now. I have you to thank for that. Your selfish, arrogant lack of attention to me has made it impossible for me to continue to exist. So now I'm a memory. Do I blame you..? No, I guess I can't...I could have stayed on land. Do I hate you anyway..? You bet I fuckin' do.
(((03))) (a.k.a. Drowning Victim)

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Gutsfuck in the Dust (or...Nick Cave treats us to Hell)

Tired of movies that are easy to watch and let you sit like a deaf moron and never pay attention? Tired of movies that end with the majority of everyones entrails remaining on the insides of their bodies? Tired of movies that don't have John Hurt in them? Well your prayers have been answered with The Proposition. Set in pre-civilized Australia, the story follows two brothers and a British Officer charged with calming the chaos in the brutal hell that is the outback. With visuals reminiscent of some of the best Jim Jarmusch and a soundtrack provided by screenwriter Nick Cave, the movie is brilliant in it's ability to ward off the "Die Hard" muscle-head idiots who are looking for gore instead of art...and it has John Hurt! This is the 3rd movie to enter my collection with Guy Pearce in it, and with the Proposition, he has solidified himself as one of my favorites.


Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Death and Human Relations (...can you hear me from up on your cross?)

You will get me back for all infractions. There is no point in letting me know what it wrong...afterall, something might be acomplished were you to do so. We may come to some compromise, solve some problems, get to the root of what is bothering you.

So in light of the situation, please ignore me or get back at me for what has upset you, be on the constant defensive and give everyone else in the world the benifit of the doubt while completely dismissing me. Why show any compasion toward the person you claim to love? Just feel free to point out my faults and short-comings. That way, when you decide to don't have to take any responcibility.


Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Lost and Found (...and Lost)

You've only just found me it seems and still I feel I've lost you. Over and over the hurt sneaks up on me, the loss, the loneliness, the overwhelming feeling that nothing's going to be OK without you. Still I be a better person, to make the decisions I know you would make, choosing the correct path.

As my heart aches, I cross my fingers, I close my eyes and make a wish. Hoping, that someday everything will fall into place, that all the dreams I've had year after year of happiness in this life will come true...that happiness will come in the form of you.


Wednesday, March 21, 2007

The Violence of Silence

In an act of sheer hostility, you can raise a question or a topic and fail to think about how the subject matter has effected the person whom you've made think about something and left them hanging by a thread over the torture and agony of the way you have chosen to ignore them. You've drained them, made them incomplete, taken what they don't have the ability to get back on their own. Your short-sightedness into the damage you're doing is unimaginable. The silence is doing me no favors.


Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Don't Answer Me

If you believe in the power of magic
I can change your mind
And if you need to believe in someone
Turn and look behind
When we were living in a dream world
Clouds got in the way
We gave it up in a moment of madness
And threw it all away

Don't answer me, don't break the silence
Don't let me win
Don't answer me, stay on your island
Don't let me in

Run away and hide from everyone
Can you change the things we've said and done?

If you believe in the power of magic
It's all a fantasy
So if you need to believe in someone
Just pretend it's me
It ain't enough that we meet as strangers
I can't set you free
So will you turn your back forever on what you mean to me?

Don't answer me, don't break the silence
Don't let me win
Don't answer me, stay on your island
Don't let me in

Run away and hide from everyone
Can you change the things we've said and done?


Monday, March 19, 2007

Attention Starved

Look at me, watch me, confirm that I exsist. Make me believe that your thoughts are only of me. Abandon your own life to live for mine, suffer only unto me. Give me what I need to get through my day, ignoring all others. I am the single world around which you should revolve...make me your universe. I will give just enough so that when I take you'll tend not to notice everything I will make you do without. No warning against me will work...only when it's too late will my intensions be clear.


Friday, March 16, 2007

Say What Again!

Special thanks to Walt (my bro from another mo) for the audio violence!


Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Are you lookin' for the motherload..?

Someone asked me a weird question today, "what song would you have played at your funeral?" No question..."Dig for Fire" by The Pixies.


Monday, March 12, 2007

What Sucks ( abreviated guide to the kind of people I hate)

People who:
show up to work with wet hair, stand directly in front of the elevator door to get on blocking you from getting off, people that stand too close behind you in line, people that write checks when making a purchase, people that complain about shit they do themselves, people who don't clean after themselves, people who love to give the opposite advise then what they take themselves, people who live on their cell phones, nosey people, loud people, thieves, hypocrites, fans of Beyonce, Shakira, Kanye West, Usher, Brandi, Monika and Metallica, anyone who spells their name different from what it's supposed to be, people who say they love the Grateful Dead and are "Deadheads" and only own one "best of" CD by them, people who laugh at everything (not because it's funny, but because they can't be bothered to pay attention), people who try to hook up with people already in relationships, people who try to break up other peoples relationships, people who refuse to do anything to keep their everyday environment tidy, people who use the "I'm foreign" excuse, people who use the "they're foreign" excuse (adapt idiots), people who say the same thing about the same shit every day always, people who think that making grunt noises to make fun of heavy metal is funny and not at all over done, people who think the same thing about pointing out that it is Friday, people who think it's neat to have 6 names, women who have had so many last names that they can't keep track of which one they had and when, people who say "no muss, no fuss", people who refuse to listen yet expect others to constantly repeat themselves, people who think that since they can't hear you that they have to yell into the phone, people who point their finger at other people because their life is so fucked up that they want to draw attention away from themselves, people that enter your bubble and people who drive slow. Fuck all y'all.


Friday, March 09, 2007

Bible or Relationship Ending? (You be the judge, oh wait...)

Then shall he say also unto them on the left hand, Depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels...And these shall go away into everlasting punishment.

(Matt 25:31-34, 41, 46)

Thursday, March 08, 2007

Nel mezzo del cammin di nostra vita

In the middle of our life's journey, do we really have any idea where we are headed? Will we be successful, rich, a failure, destitute? When we die, shall we remain lifeless in the ground, alive forever in heaven, in torment in hell? None of these questions can be answered with any degree of certainty, yet blindly we go on about our lives. No security that we will see tomorrow or that given tomorrow, we will be granted the securities that made the thought of that that day bearable. Lasciate ogne speranza, voi ch'intrate. So sayeth the Shepherd, so sayeth the flock.


Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Straight Outta Locash

Monday, March 05, 2007

The Empty You (this is your own Hell)

As I stare at my wall counting the minutes, I am reminded of the loss I have to feel over and over again...the blank expressions and days of endless silence. The nail in our coffin...the last day of nothing. The defense of everyone else in the world. The fridgid cold ice water coursing in those veins...your hatred can warm you at night. Your razor sharp spite can be the black wings with which you fly away to into the dream world you think we live in.